I Do Not Love You.

Sonnet XVII

"I do not love you"

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose,

or topaz,

or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off....

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,

in secret,

between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms

but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;

thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,

risen from the earth,

lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how?

or when?

or from where?

I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;

so I love you because I know no other way

than this:

where I does not exist,

nor you,

so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,

so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep... - Pablo Neruda

9/11 Cubao X

Mga tambay lang kame sawa sa babae
Mga babaeng manloloko peneperahan lang kame
Kaya ngayon bakla na lang ang aming iibigin
Masarap magmahal ang bakla o kaysarap....

Mga tambay lang kame sawa sa babae
Mga babaeng manloloko peneperahan lang kame
Kaya ngayon bakla na lang ang aming iibigin
Masarap magmahal ang bakla o kaysarap

[V1]

Sinasambul ang puso ko ay lagi ng sugatin
Sineseryoso ko baket ako iniiwanan
Kaya ngayon nagising na ko sa katotohanan
Na lolokohin lang kame ng mga kababaihan
Kaya ngayon napagpasyahan na bakla aking iibigin
At ipapadama ko ang himig ng aking dadamin
Sa kanya oo nga nga at hindi sa isang babae
Dahil ang puso ko ay kanilang sinabutahe
Para bang akoy isang laruin na kanilang tinapakpak
Pag katapos pagsawaan kanilang tatalikuran
It's so unfare kaya bakla na lang ang iibigin
Kaya ngayon pakinggan nyu para sa inyo itong awitin

[CHORUS]

[V2]

Hinanakit sa babae ang dahilan kung bakit
Nagmahal ako ng tulad nya kahit sya ay pangit
At di na pinagkait at sa akin hindi lumapit
Kaya hanggang ngayon virgin pa ang aking pwet
At alam ko namang wala akong kahati
Di ko sya mabubuntis pagkat pareho kami ng are
Grabe buong buhay nya ay sa akin binigay
Lahat lahat kanyang inalay basta wag akong mawalay
Di na kita iiwan kahit na ikay bakla
Bastat tiwala mo sa akin singkil lang ng tala
At totoong relasyon natin ay parang ginto mahal kita
Wag lang sana kong magkatulo

[CHORUS]

[V3]

Nasulat ko ang kantang to dahil sa galit
Pagkat sa tuwing nagmamahal puso koy napupunit
Ginawa ko naman ang lahat sa kanya lang inilaan
Binigay ang nais na luho patiya ay katawan
Pero kapalit nito isa pa lang kataksilan
At nagawa pa niya na ko pagtawanan
Kaya ngayon si lhenjack labis ang pagiyak
Puso koy parang nasagasaan ng limang milyong truck
Sa isip ko tumatak ang sakit na natamo
Kaya nag disisyon tuloy ang puso na laging bigo
Na bakla na lang ang iibigin ko
Di na ko masasaktan nagka pera pa ako

[CHORUS]

[V4]

Isang bakla ang iibigin habang buhay
Sa kanya ko lang inalay ang puso kong makulay
Sya ang nagbigay ng tawa at saya
Pag ibig kong ito sa kanya lang lumigaya
Kaysa sa gf ko na wala namang pake
Nagmahal ako sa kanya ng walang silbe
Kaya sa isang bakla ako ay nagmahal
Kahit sa ibang girl pagibig ko ay matumal
Kahit karumaldumal pa ang kanyang pagmumuka
Basta wag lang nya kong gawing ka awa awa
Kaya sa bigo sa mga babae dyan
Umibig ng bakla nakakalat lang yan dyan

[CHORUS]

[V5]

Ayoko ng umibig na kahit na sinu pa
Kasi ako sayo ay ok nat akoy sayo na
Bastat ang yong responsibility ay wag limutin
Wala kang ibang gagawin kundi akoy pasayahin
Ako sayo ay happy kasi lagi akong busog
Hindi mo ako ginugutom cause takot kang pabugbug
Sa buhay ko ikaw ang pumapapel na yaya
Pero kahit ganun hindi pagpapalit sa iba
Pero wag kang umasa na sakin ka makaisa
Bago tayo magtabi sa kama mag paopera
O diba hitech tayo ay modern na lover
Pagdumikit ka sakin sisigaw ako holdaper

Just saw this. :)

4 OUTFITS

9/10/9: COSMOPOLITAN BACHELOR BASH 2009 @ NBC

9/11 CUBAO X

9/12 STYLE GARAGE MAKATI

9/15: IMAGINE 4: SILENCE, THE LAUNCH EXHIBIT @ GB5

CLUE: 4 OUTFITS FOR THE WEEK

9/10/9: COSMOPOLITAN BACHELOR BASH 2009, NBC

clue: "take down NOTES!"

9/10: and lipat tayong CUBAO X

9/12: and balik tayong MAKATI!!!

and "Imagine the Silence Launch"

The Spoils of Love: An Imagine The Silence exhibit

Got me Bette Davis eyes...

Yes I'm tired.

Thats how I want to start with my post.

It has been a while, Journal, since our last conversation,

Needless to say you know I'm doing "good" or even, "great".

It suddenly dawned on me, that these things aren't me.

No. "I" am not good, "I" am not great.

I feel so lost that I didn't know what to really talk about first.

And these uncertainties, echoes my silence.

I am so self-absorbed that I think I can always help myself,

Truth is, If a lamb roars like a lion, can you make doves cry?

So, Where is this all coming from?

I am coming from the fact, that at this point,

I can spell Success, maybe not in everybody's description,

But even my dreams, have never come this far. :)

I know some people that looks at my journal, they think I'm emo, dark, twisty...

Then there are those, who enjoys a naked soul.

If I say these are facts, you might believe it.

Thus if I say this is fiction, you then might believe it as well.

As this is being written, I'm counting the coins in my "Alkansya".

Or, before I started writing, I started first with counting my coins?

Deadma, thing is, I'm 29, and fair enough, I'm exhaustedly happy,

Happy enough to make my father proud. That good.

I had 4 hours of nice nap, no dreaming, no nightmares.

Just a surprisingly nice nap.

Yesterday, I tweeted everybody to make a wish.

I did not. But it would explain my sleep. I'm certain.

I was joking with a friend when I told him,

"Man, You've got a baggage over there..."

He backfired with the same words,

He cares.

If we ever get there?

Should we ever get there.

You think there really is "nobody but you?"

Don't worry, it scared me as well.

For now, we ride, we ride, we ride...

NEW YORK, I LOVE YOU official trailer

CELEBRATION

I think you wanna come over,
Yeah I heard it through the grapevine
Are you drunk or you sober?
Think about it, doesn’t matter

And if it makes you feel good then I say do it,
I don’t know what you’re waiting for
Feel my temperature rising
There’s too much heat I’m gonna lose control
Do you want to go higher,
Get closer to the fire,
I don’t know what you’re waiting for

Come join the party, yeah
Coz’ everybody just won’t do
Let’s get this started, yeah
Coz everybody wants to party with you

Boy you got a reputation,
But you’re gonna have to prove it
I see a little hesitation,
And Madonna have to show you that if
It feels right, get on your marks
Step to the beat boy that’s what it’s for
Put your arms around me
When it gets too hot we can go outside
But for now just come here, let me whisper in your ear
An invitation to the dance of life

Come join the party, it’s a celebration
Anybody just won’t do
Let’s get this started, no more hesitation
Coz everybody wants to party with you

Haven’t I seen you somewhere before?
You look familiar
You wanna dance?, Yeah…
I guess I just don’t recognize you with your clothes on (laughs)
What are you waiting for?
Boy you’ve got it
Coz anybody just won’t do

Let’s get it started, no more hesitation
Coz everybody wants to party with you
Come join the party, it’s a celebration
Anybody just won’t do

Let’s get this started, no more hesitation
Coz everybody wants to party with you
Come join the party, it’s a celebration
Anybody just won’t do

Let’s get this started, no more hesitation
Coz everybody wants to party with you
Boy you’ve got it
Coz anybody just won’t do
Let’s get it started, no more hesitation
Coz everybody wants to party with you.